Thursday, February 16, 2006


So I'm sitting here in my apartment looking at my pictures that are all around. I notice that even though I seem to have many photos, there are only a handful of people in these photos. I have the same people over and over again. I mean I'm sure it has to do with me loving these people, but it also means that I have a very closed circle of people I care about. I mean the people in my photos are my parents, sister, cousins, jack, both sides of grandparents, 3 dogs that I could consider family, and my only two friends in my photos are Jess and Ashley. I feel like I should have more people in my photos, or I should have more recent photos, I think the most recent would be the one of me and jack from august, actually I think its me and jess from christmas. I guess it just depresses me.

Sunday, February 12, 2006


Ok so I'm sitting in "my" room at my cousins house, the snow is swirling around outside. It is absolutely a wonderland out there. I am so happy that I came up, too bad the baby shower got pushed to next week. However this snow makes me very happy, I mean I just look outside and I smile. The only thing better would be if I had jack laying down next to me and we were watching to snow together, but we did that earlier so I'm ok now. Had a wonderful morning with him, we woke up and had a special breakfast together, just the two of us. I mean it was only us so his parents could get some sleep, but it was nice just me and him. He told me I was his favorite cousin, I mean its not like I have competition or anything but its just so great when he comes up with these on his own, not prompted or anything. I love him so much. I love getting hugs and kisses and lots of love. Ok well I woke up at about 7 am, so since Jack is watching dora and was a bit sleepy I am going to take this chance to catch up on some sleep. Goodnight snow!

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Snow snow snow

i am so happy that there is going to be a blizzard. I mean yeah it might suck and something bad might happen, but its snow, how bad can that be? Tonight Chris is going to make a fire, and Jen and I might be going to the movies. I love coming to visit, they really seemed to miss me. I love it! When I got into the car Jack seemed so happy to see me, I mean Jen told me he said I was his best friend. It makes me so happy to know he loves me so much. And the best part was that he would not stop hugging me. I am really happy right now. The snow will only make it better. I am soooooo happy. I don't think anything can make it worse.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

My family

Yeah so my parents don't tell me shit. I men i knew this and I have tried to accept it, but now big stuff is not being told to me. Like my grandmother had to call me to tell me my grandfather was in the hospital a day after my parents found out. This is not information that we don't tell Lana. This is important information that needs to be communicated. Then there was this health thing with my mom, who I am currently in a fight with, that I wasn't told anything about. So its ok that my parents don't tell me important things, but if I was not to tell them something super important it would be the end of the world. I'm sick of this one sided thing, we agreed that since I was going away things were going to be different and they would tell me what is going on. Its just realy frustrating to deal with all of this stuff.